"Where did I go right? How did I get you? I don't know how I feel." I know BYU-Idaho is the place that I need to be, and I can't stay there forever. However, I've been home for 2 weeks now, and I still haven't adjusted. I feel like something's wrong, but I just don't know what.
I wish I could be reminded of how to live life in the world if you know what I mean...
I know I haven't seen a lot of my friends yet, and I don't work, but still, I feel like a stranger here. Nothing feels the same, and therefore, I don't know what exactly I'm feeling.
I love it up in Idaho at school. I miss it so much and all the people. I'm taking two online classes, but they aren't the same. I can't wait for the next 4 months to pass by so I can get back to school. That's where my life is now. I just hope things start coming around soon.
I love my family, but after living away for a long time, it's difficult being home again. I don't know how missionaries do it. Now I kin
d of understand why they want to search for their wife instead of relaxing.
I never thought I'd feel this way so soon.
It's like I've changed up there, and I owe it to all the amazing people up there, because now I totally love life, but I know I'm still that same person that everyone was friends with. What happened?
I've been away from home for only 7 months, and even at Thanksgiving it was coming on. My past is like it was yesterd
ay but so far away. It's like I've never been around to be their friends. I wish I could go back.
I'll probably change my mind once I finally start seeing my friends again and a job, but even still, a part of me will always be that way.
I can dream all I want of a summer romance, but chances are, it's not going to happen. I wish, but that's probably as good as it's going to get.
I wish they were here. I wish we could be a real family forever...we are, I know, but can they be with me here and now?
I need my friends again. I need that shoulder to cry on. I miss them too much. This is one of the hardest things in my life so far. Please don't loose contact with me. I need you. All of you. I love you all. Take care!
~Invisible Girl
Hi Becca! I'm so glad you loved your first year of college. Seriously...it's such a fun time in your life. Just wanted you to know that I totally remember feeling a lot like you do. I didn't feel like I fit at home any more. Too old for Young Womens....too young for all the OLD ladies in Relief Society. Where's a girl to go?!
ReplyDeleteAnd being at home....yeah that's totally an adjustment. You are so used to taking care of yourself and doing everything on your own time, that it is really hard to get used to having your mom try and...well...be a mom. Anyways, you'll get in a grove soon and this summer will be over before you know it. Good luck with the job hunt and your online classes.
Becca! I love you. You are pretty much amazing. I miss collage life too and I am only fifteen minutes away from it. But it is not the same. I hope you have an amazing summer. I am super excited to see you next semester! It is going to be so much fun :)
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